Sunday, December 16, 2012
Women! I have a very special woman in my life. She is my guiding light, and she will forever guide me in my life. I have been asked the question, "why have I not settled down yet?". I was once ready to settle down with a woman who I had been with for 6 years, but her family tension and pressure was not something I was interested in. The tension turned into pressure and then was forcing my hand to make certain compromises that I did not want to make. That 6 year mistake dwindled away into nothing. I feel nothing for her anymore. The fact is, I never even think about her at all. I have just wised up and decided to never make that type of mistake ever again. Yes it was a mistake. I have shifted my focus from that old relationship to the gym.
The gym is my new focus. Mainly, ME! I said that I am going to get in shape, going to slim down, and going to put on some muscles. I didn't want to be just another guy with a beer belly and poor eating habits. With the support of my friend, I am close to completing that goal. I lost 45 total pounds in 1 year, and I am constantly making gains at the gym. I never felt so confident looking at myself. Small example - when I first started going to the gym, I looked for the quickest way to lose weight. I tried thermogenics, substitutions and a lot of the latest products at the time that promised results. None of that stuff worked. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself that I want my back to be the strongest muscle I have. Now, my back is packing on the muscles that I never believed I could. I did the research and through trial and error, developed a workout routine that works for me and my diet. It took me one full year to comprehensively understand how my body works, and what works for me to lose fat and put on muscle. Now, the gym is my temple. I put my ipod in my ear and the rest of the world has no meaning. No phone, no distraction, just me. I spend so much time in the gym because it's one place where I control my gains. I love losing myself in what I do while at the gym. I am not a gym rat or meat-head.
All things said, I completed the sole resolution that I made to myself - Get in shape and make strength gains. I have been thinking about some new ones for this coming year. I want to quit smoking. I stopped for 2 weeks, which does not seem long to the non-smoker, but it is. When I am stressed about my life, I go to the gym and also smoke. I eased up on my drinking. My next major goal is to make myself more desirable to myself and others. By others, I mean my friends and WOMEN! Right now I am in a rut, but I have slowed things down enough to sort of the meaning of this rut and how to fix it. I am 28 years old and have nothing to show for it. Time for a change.