After some recent events in my life, I have started to believe that there is no good left in the world. I lost my guiding light that told me what I should do and when I should do it. The last conversation I had with my guiding light was the most personal one that I have ever had. I mentioned that people that are down on their luck like me tend to stoop to criminal measures, but I would never do that. There's so much more that I could say, but it puts me in such a dark place that I cannot invest the time right now to come back.
Everyone always asks me how I am doing or how do I feel, and I never know how to answer. How would anyone feel if they're answers for all right/wrong questions were taken away?
My schoolwork has been in line with my plan. I complete everything ahead of schedule. My teammates and I have a synergistic relationship. This has been the first time, in a long time, that I respect the work ethic of my group. I could only hope that I can continue to take classes with them and maintain this enlightening relationship.
The job prospects have fallen off the radar; hopefully because of the "christmasy" season. Everyday that ticks by, I can only hope that I will get a call soon. I cannot go on like this forever. For FUCKS SAKE!
My family and friends have never meant more to me than they do now.
I will get to the others when I return from my long awaited trip to 'sanctuary'.
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